屈悶

昨晚很辛苦,,,如果不是咖啡...便是屈在心中的心事。
三點鐘上床睡覺... 4:30點半才睡著。 今早7點半就醒了...現在居然一些疲憊的感覺都沒有。

壓得心口透不到氣, 要不斷深呼吸。

雖然和porno doctor 傾完電話後心情平伏了不少... ... 真係儀態盡失, 一緊張說話就超快+ 亂七八糟, 仲要中途無電cut 線... ... 但依然覺得自己還未能調節得到...

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記趣事一則:
朋友k 在極無聊之下拿了我的錢包把玩, 十分驚訝地發現了一塊膠布。

k: 咦, 你居然會帶膠布, 唔似喎!
paris: 點解唔似呀?
k: 你唔似咁賢良淑德囉。
paris: 唔係麻, 咁我似咩。
k: 唔....女強人
paris: 唔好掛...女強人多數都係姑婆呀!
k: ...... 唔係, 係可能40 歲之後先結婚者......
paris: 咁我要賢良淑德d先得
k: (無言)


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來多一則ranting:

" i thought you were not a virgin.." This line or something along this line has been told by more than 5 different people to me, which started to annoy me. And i was asked again today.
I really want to make it clear that if i can chat openly and honestly, and with more knowledge than other girls, it doesnt mean i have done it. There is a line between talking about wild things and doing wild things. Im not shy doesnt mean im wild about things.

And that i have to explain to every person who has asked me that. I didnt take it so personally at first but now i must take it as an insult to my stupidity and shallowness.

Besides, dont talk pish to me about: "' i dont know why virgins refuse having sex and want to stay that way." Sometimes i feel so sorry and want to cry for these people.